Thank you again a lot.
I wish i could know you in the real life I'm sure I can learn a lot from you and we could be very good friends.
you're right this kind of relationship is not healthy
since then there's now less than 2 years my elder did not even know her father or she barely knew him. and now we have another baby I want to give them a happy childhood in a beautiful united family. I would not want to disturb them with early changes in their young age. I actually speak more for the eldest. but I do not intend to live this life for a long time and doing nothing. I have plans and I intend to realize them. it just remains me to gather my courage. when he will be decided to file my papers, I will focus on my studies.
otherwise I'm really sorry for your children I hope they'll find the happiness they deserve and will find the person who can love them at their fair value and you also.
I don't know what gonna happen between my husband and i. But i hope that things will work out because apart his mania for controlling everything and knowing everything I love him