Dear T,

I need help. Please help me. I feel like I'm screaming but there's a clear, sound-proof wall between us and you can't understand me or hear the intensity of this acute pain. And I can't hear you only that your mouth is moving. It's terrifying, isolating, angering and I just can't take it anymore. You said "you can always call me." But you don't understand that I don't know how to even begin. I struggle to express my feelings even to myself, let alone to another person. I don't want you to leave me but at the same time, I hate you for that. Can you stay with me when I'm so hostile? Can you help me? Please?