I don't really know why I'm stressing over a word......I think it's cause I've had a semi-rupture with my T and I feel out of control. And I don't know what's going on inside of me and in the therapy room. It feels like my T has it all figured out but I'm kept out of the loop. And sometimes I feel like my T can see inside me like I'm transparent but when I look down at myself there's nothing there. Anyways, Im sure it's not important.