Thank you for this thread. I really relate to this myself and it makes me feel much less alone reading that others have exactly the same fears and issues. It really is amazing to read this as i could have written this word for word. Thank you. This is really helpful. I think I am going to raise this with my T next time we meet! Torturous sums this up so well. I am so sorry you are hurting and going through this. Do you think this T's are used to dealing with this with clients? I have so many thoughts but i don't have any advice - just want you to know you are not alone and thank you again for sharing. I wish you all the very best. Take good care. Xx