I didn't get any sleep last night. I was trapped in my own thoughts. And they didn't feel like they were mine anymore. They wanted me to end it. But I'm still here in protest. My life is hell... But taking the easy way out is selfish... I can't leave behind my grandad who has cancer. Or my grandma who has carers coming to visit her. I can't leave behind my boyfriend who I've only just managed to convince that he is loveable. I can't leave behind my rabbit breeder friend. Not after all she did to help me get through college.

I went to the dentist for a check up today. Apparently now that my wisdom teeth have come through, everything is perfect and I have nice clean teeth. My teeth are the only part of my body I take good care of and that's because I don't like dentists. I still have to have my dad in the room with me when I go because I feel so uncomfortable in that chair. It's invasion of my personal space on the extreme level. I've also been given a medical form to fill out for the dentist because of moving and all. So they want to update my file. But that's not hard to do.

I also feel like crying. But I can't cry. It's really bugging me.