whim - it doesn't sound like a rant to me. I work in health care and had a job where I took call for 13 years. I can really relate to your feelings and fears about call. I grew to really dislike it and ultimately changed positions. Having a lifestyle that is more predictable suits me much better. I don't read into your post that you believe your mood issues are entirely driven by taking call but I will add that changing positions did not 'fix' my anxiety issue. I still have anxiety/depression and have to do the work to stay emotionally healthy but not taking call was an improvement in my life.

I hope you find some answers.