Last Friday my Ex and I got into an argument. For the past month weve been trying to rekindle what we had. Weve been back and forth for the past 9 years. He came back to me this time and said he wanted to take my time and just let him show i was what he wanted. This one argument was super trivial and came from a place a fear for the both of us. And now we havent spoken for the past week. I miss him dearly and tried speaking to him on Wed and he said he would let me talk but he wasnt ready to talk at the time. I miss him tho hes like my best friend and i just want a hud from him and i feel like i would call down. After Wed i havent reached out at all and niether has he. Yesterday i had a panic attack and ended up in the hospital. So much is going thru my mind including not speaking to him and i was overwhelmed. After i was discharged i text him and he called me and he let me vent about some issues but didnt want to discuss anything with us really.
I dont know what to do with it. Not speaking to him is affecting me, but i am trying to give him his time. Im trying so hard but it hurts me. We went from being ok to just dead all over again and im lost.
Please Help Me!!