Frankbtl, I briefly saw a therapist back in 2007. I had to stop because I simply couldn't afford the co-pay ($60 per session with twice weekly sessions). I was originally sent with a diagnosis of anorexia nervosa. At that time I was at my lowest weight of 89lbs (I'm 5'8"). My childhood was a big topic of discussion. Of course, it mainly focused on the relation to my anorexia. However, my T did point out the striking resemblance between my abuser and my now husband (@ the time we weren't married but had our oldest daughter together). My T suggested that I was subconsciously reliving my childhood through this relationship with a hope of a different outcome. My T STRONGLY suggested I cut all ties with my now husband, save for supervised exchanges of our child if so ordered by a court. Instead...I married him! I can't answer why I went against my T's advice. I really don't know.
There is no doubt that my childhood is the overwhelming area of my issues today. I just don't know how to overcome it. I would love to find another T to try again, but I can't afford it...and my husband wouldn't allow it even if I could. Other than mentions of it on here, no, I don't talk to anyone about my childhood. Quite honestly, I don't talk to anyone much in general.
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