Thank you.
She just called and apologized for the delay, between a very busy day and then her phone being blocked for some hours she just didn't get back to me earlier. Hearing that no, I have not done anything wrong, and to be in touch as much as I want - music to my ears.
Hmm. I think I would have been outwardly fine even if she didn't call - I need to go for a run, have domestic stuff that needs to be done, and am going to friends for dinner tonight. So I have a stuff to do. But inwardly I would have been puzzled and uneasy and felt like I was too ridiculously dependent.
In fact, I think I still am feeling uneasy about being this dependent. If it is adding to my anxiety to not have a reply in a day, that doesn't feel too healthy to me. Maybe this is a warning that I'm relying on somebody too much.
I just want to need nobody.
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