I most totally agree with feralkittymom, there is no therapeutic frame here, all these emotions and feelings bouncing around in your head are making you extremely anxious, there are really no set boundaries on lcm, being that she acting as your life coach, and your other therapists and her seem not to be on one page, it seems in my oppinion theres different treatment plans for you, but none are on one page. So the idea of you emailing and her not responding , so that you can work on your reasurance problems and such, are really not working, and you are not even anchored yet, like the other poster suggested, no therapeutic frame.

I think in my oppinion, like others have suggested in other postings, you really will get better slowly, but you need to want to get better, even if its really scary right now, but its up to you to take that step, I know, i am taking those steps, in my forties, you have many therapists and support networks and such and god bless you for that, but they are like floating puzzle pieces , they are not put together.

once they come together and work with each other, formulate one treatment plan and get on one page, and communicate with each other , and check on your progress, and also you should tell them how your relationship with lcm is affecting you, the whole truth, once all that is said and done, I think you will get all the help you need, and a treatment plan will be formulated in your best interested. I am sorry in advanced if anything im saying will make you upset. hugs