I've always struggled with my weight, ever since I turned 21. I yo-yo between 60 and 80 kilos. That's a lot of weight to lose and gain in short periods of time. Usually I'm on the high side of that scale, but on each of my 2 bouts of depression I've had a period of appetite loss. That's normally when I lose a dramatic amount of weight in around two months. By the end I look amazing, and I get compliments from everyone, even get stared at sometimes. You'd think that was good right? But the reason I'm that thin is because I'm miserable! And then when I'm fat I'm even more miserable! It's a no win situation. I comfort eat, and then when I'm really freaking out I stop eating altogether. It's so crazy. How do you handle weight fluctuations? How do you eat to stay healthy without bingeing because you feel like ****, or depriving yourself for the same reason? It's so tiring, not to mention that my stomach really screams out at me by the end of the day lately.