There are things I would like to say to my T. also. But, I am afraid.
Last time I saw her, I almost said, "I wish we could be friends." I know that is not allowed between a T and a client. It would make me happy to think that someday she and I could be friends (outside of therapy of course).

Sometimes I want to tell her I love her (like a friend or a sister), but I am very afraid that whatever she might say, I would feel rejected. Sigh.