I really can relate... For me, it is very difficult to accept that T might be just nice, I'm always wondering why she offers something, why she is so warm and nice etc. It's very difficult to just accept it... Another thing is that when your T doesn't give you strict rules, it might be a bit confusing... For instance, for me, strict rules and boundaries mean that the therapy is more predictable, I know what to expect so it is somehow safer, while not knowing all rules and knowing that many things depend on me cause that I'm not sure what to expect and I have to trust my T more - that's not so easy...