I kind of get what you mean...but sort of not...I ended up hanging out with my boyfriend last night and doing stuff...I was hoping to be taken out to dinner to get roses, lol something stuff and choclates...cause this was what i was told was gonna go on...

and when it wasn't fully what I got it...made me feel badly a lil but I did not want to complain cause I was with him and he was giving me attension....he is going to school right now and working and we can't do the kinds of thing we would really like to be doing right now...

but I know its not entirely his fault....its kind of sad but nither one of us know how to be truly in a "good" relationship.

but none of my partners in the past have been incredibly sooo romantic with me anyway... I wish I could say this truly did not bug me but it does to a degree...and it truly has nothing to do with him....its simply the fact of I have never been treated extra special by someone else...and I would like to feel that way every now and then....I have a lot going on in my life right now and being able to spend time....with my SO is important to me....

I allow things like this to get to me too easily and get me depressed and I always feel weak and immature after I end up doing it...cause I guess I feel like why I am being emotional over this....he did do stuff for you he got us sweets from the store...and he bought me a rose...lol this is more then a lot of people in the past...

i guess its also the fact I felt like i had to ask for it...there is nothing wrong with asking for what you want in life that makes you happy but to a degree sometimes it feels like I wish I did not have to...ask