Hi,

I just came around, sorry for the late reply. The highs are just the only thing that comes close to how I want to feel at the moment... less... real.

I just to get through to June. I already feel horrific for asking for help in the first place. I've tried University counselling, that didn't help at all. My GP said he 'doesn't know what to suggest'. I've seen a psychiatrist twice, my next appointment is Monday. But I can't talk to him. I lock down, and freeze up. I just answer on auto. When I tried to explain why I wouldn't take prescription drugs, he just laughed at me. So now I feel really uncomfortable and ashamed in the meetings. The meetings never last longer then 10 minutes, max. I can't change psych's because I've tried before. People just say 'well, he's the best in the country' and brush it off.
I've tried, and its so hard to even admit that I tried to get help. But I did. It didn't work, it just made me feel worse.
So now I'm done.