I am feeling really awful tonight. Tonight is just not a good night for me, I am so anxious.
I stared a summer job last week and I am having a really hard time dealing with it tonight. I help run a summer school for developmentally disabled children and at times it can get really stressful. I love my job and I love the kids, but I don't want anything to do with it right now. I am just coming off a period of time where my anxiety had almost total control over me. I was also diagnosed with anorexia that came from my anxiety and desire to control something.
I really feel like I am not ready for this, but I have to do it. I do this every year and if I just dropped out there wouldn't be anyone to do my job. I know I have to stay, but right now I really feel like I can't handel it. I am about ready to scream. I love the kids but part of my anxiety is worrying about getting sick and kids are famous for being sick. I really want to run away and hide right now and i don't know what to do. Kate