Depression is hitting me pretty hard today. My eyes are constantly tearing up and I have no idea why. I'm not a crier. I get angry and stomp around or I lay in bed and sleep but I don't walk around crying. This is kinda strange for me. Could this be a new way of expressing anger? Is it a good or a bad thing? Well, at least I'm not stomping around and slamming things. I just feel so sad and I think it's because I've been thinking over things from when I was in the thick of my depression. People can be so god damn mean. I mean, you're feeling down and out and you're obviously a little out of sorts and people just use that oppurtunity to kick you. And there's no reason for it. I'm angry and sad that I didn't stick up for myself. I never stuck up for myself. I'd stick up for someone I loved in a heartbeat but not for myself and I'm very mad at myself for not telling those people to go F$#% off.