HI Jax, I'm also feeling very tearful, something that is new to me. Before my saddness was always covered up by my anger. I think crying is a good thing!.

I;m not sure about the other people in your life. Sometimes they are embarrassed by their own lack of understanding and use anger also. I don't think you need to beat yourself up for not being mean back. It takes a brave person to just turn the other cheek.

Just let yourself be with your tears and let them heal you, and then maybe you will be more aware of what type of person you will into your life in future? Its painful when we start to see just how abusive our relationships have become.

Perhaps your crying for the vunrable part of yourself today? Take care of her.