Hi SeptemberMorn,
I originally saw your post when it was in the sexual issues forum and was struck by your anger at the lack of responses. So I followed the post over here!
I understand that it's frustrating when no one responds. In fact, I even left another forum once because any complicated issue I tried to post was routinely ignored (in my opinion).
But with that said, there will always be
way more views than responses. I read a lot of posts that I don't respond to. I didn't respond to yours because I couldn't think of anything to offer. I don't know how someone can deal with abuse or why it would resurface. The only thing I can offer is this (and it isn't much): I feel very sorry to read about your pain -- I think it's terrible what was done to you, and I hope that someone (therapists, friends, etc.) can help you deal with it. I imagine that traumatic experiences
always follow you in life. I'm sad to read about it. I hope it gets better for you.
That's the only response I can give you, and I didn't really think it was enough to be worth giving. :-(
Sidony