Had my appt and it didn't go over well. T said
1) I need to make friends and be apart of something
2) I should maybe think of the AA saying change People and Place - and maybe move
3) I have xanax take it to go out
**keep in mind I been dealing with social anxiety for close to 17yrs and 5 yrs of of it I been agoraphobic.**

I replied back with please help me with the anxiety so I can do those things - that is where he responded I have xanax. I said that isn't teaching me how to overcome my anxiety. Moving pissed me off because more than anything I would love to get out of this hell hole state more than anything and if I can't walk around the block how the hell would I be able to go back home 3000 miles away. I feel stuck and trapped here!!!

I terminated my services with that T. I did find someone who "specializes" exclusively in anxiety disorder treatment FINALLY. I have an appt set for March 4th. I spoke briefly with new T and she seemed to understand what I was seeking and how she could help me achieve it Here is to HOPE bc the therapy I have here the past 3yrs has been so ****** and damaging.