Hi Jax:
Hmmmmmmmmmm...thanks for sharing your emotions today.
I used to only have like two emotions. Happy and angry. Whenever I felt sad or depressed or anything but happy, I would express that emotion as anger.
Since October all I have been doing is crying. But, my tears don't get stuck at the rims, they just pour out. Sometimes, throughout my life, I have not cried when I should have because, maybe, I thought it was a sign of weakness. Perhaps I didn't feel comfortable letting anyone see that I was in a vulnerable state because I was afraid that people would take advantage of my vulnerability. Like, kick me when I am down. Now, I can't control the tears, they just come when they come. But, interestingly, I don't FEEL any different than I did when I was expressing anger.
My apologies if this diatribe doesn't provide you with any answers. Your posting just got me to thinking and I felt like commiserating.
Maybe crying IS a new way of expressing anger OR, maybe our anger was just masking our true emotions. Emotions that we are not truly in touch with yet and, therefore, don't really know how to express?