((((izzyfg2000)))) thanks for posting. I'm so sorry to hear you are in so much pain. There are ways to get the pain / anxiety better without ending your life. Please call a crisis line, a therapist, 911 or go to the ER. What you are feeling IS that serious and you need help now. You are that important. You are not a combination of your flaws. You are a beautiful, wonderful being put here to complete the universe. If you end your life, there will be a hole in the universe, a piece of the puzzle missing.now go get some help and may angels surround you.