Hi Evie,
I have bipolar disorder and have been in your situation. For now, do you have access to a school counselor/nurse, or some other trusted source of authority that you could talk to?

Are you in high school? College? How much longer until you are able to support yourself? To what extent are you financially mobile? Do you have your own health insurance? I ask this because I was able to get help after I left for college. My scholarship subsidized my health insurance, and I got a job on the side. I was able to see psychologists and psychiatrists without having to depend on my parents, or disclosing too much to them. I am much more stable now.

Keep us posted, and best of luck,
Allie