Anyone here on disability or applying for it? I am 50 years old and have had depression my whole life. If has interfered with my work career but I was luckey to have bosses who understood. I usually missed three months a year do to depression. Most bosses would not put up with this. My depression has gotten proggesively worse over the last five years with the addition of anxiety and social phobia. My last severe depression lasted six months and was suicidal all the time. Since then I have cycled in and out. My family and I decided given my whole history and current situation it would be best to apply for disability. Right now I am doing good but if I got out and get a job I will just lose it when the depression hits again. It takes forever to find out if you will win your case on appeal and I feel like I am in limbo. It could take over a year to find out. When depressed it is easier because I just sleep. When I am not in a depression I feel guilty that I am not doing anything. I need to find some purpose without working. This is much more difficult than I thought going from a person who has worked to my whole life to a person that is unable to work. I can't really go get a good job as a plumber for three months go into a depression and then go find another job after three months its just not going to work. I hope I win my case.