I posted recently about needing "action" and a few of you gave some great tips and reading suggestions. I need to reread that because I'm stuck again, spinning my wheels.

I have so many things running around my head. Work and how much I have to get done and things I dropped the ball on, and will I be able to catch up? My condo is a disaster and I can't get motivated to start to clean it. I love my family but at times I don't want to be with them and put on a happy face. I feel like I'm lying to them. Then last night I had a major blow to my ego. This guy I had been dating on and off, who I know is not good for me but for some reason he's stuck in my head......posted some photos on Facebook making me think he s dating another girl that I suspected he has been seeing for a while. It just sucks, rejection is not what I need right now.

I keep thinking back to how I was when I was younger (I'm 38 now). I had hope,I made plans, I was excited about things. I thought my life was going to be great. Now it's an effort to get through each day. I didn't want to get out of bed this morning.

I'm so scared is is never going to get better. That this is the way the rest of my life will be. I have to fix this. I have to make it better. I've tried a lot of varying meds and some have worked for short periods and others not at all. My next Rx appointment is in the 25 and it can't come soon enough.

I just need to do something other than sit on the sofa and cry. How am I going to get better?? I want a normal life.