One of the problems I have now is that when I am seeing my pdoc or T, I seem (and am) optimistic or able to become so during the hour, but outside of the therapy, I am less so. Still, although I cycle through periods of depression, hypomania, and a less than lovely mix of the too, overall I am much better than I was. Maybe there is so benefit to getting by with med checks (pdoc) and bimonthly check-up (T). Although I wish I could explain to my T how much I wish for help with my difficulty making friends. It's not so much social phobia; I can talk to people with some, but not major anxiety. What I can't do is invite people out for coffee, or to see a movie, to the bar or to much of anything. I don't know how she could help with that though. I'm really diving off topic though, so I will copy most of this into another post of my own and people can answer me there.

DM