Dear T, I am feeling even more sure that what I last put here is correct that it is time for me to let you go. Not, "oh I'm taking a break" and leaving it open-ended but to let you go for reals this time. Yes, I know that I still have "stuff". But you know what T? I'm always gonna have "stuff". And you've helped me become equipped to deal with whatever "stuff" comes up. If I had unlimited finances, I wouldn't mind paying you to be my mentor - I enjoy talking with you, bouncing my ideas off you, sharing my inner work with you - but I am just not in a financial position to do that. It's not fair to my family. I did it when it was therapy because I still needed help and wasn't ready to "be out here" on my own w/out you. But that's changed T, you said it yourself, and I can't ask my family to sacrifice anymore just so I can have a mentor. Life doesn't work that way. And I am going to tell you this when we talk again in a week or so.