I been a bit more stressed lately. I believe mostly because we are closing up our fiscal year end at work. It is always a particularly stressful time. Even though my rational side knows to expect more stress, I still find myself never being fully prepared.

I have noticed lately that I am a little more short tempered. I consider myself a very open minded understanding person with an acceptable amount of patience but lately, I have no tolorance for stupidity, and have found myself expressing that verbally to people at work. In addition to that I was hanging out with my hubby and best friend last night and I was pissed off the whole night. I cold have sworn she was trying to flirt with Jackson (my husband). I am still pissed about it today. I am sure she could tell I was a little pissed but I really didn't care and if truth be told, I wanted her to ask me if something was wrong so I could tell her exactly what I thought.

This whole pattern of thinking is worrying me. I can recognize that these feelings are building up and quite frankly, I'm scared of what that can lead too.

Over the past two years I have tryed to be very concious of my thoughts and spent alot of time changing my thought patterns through techniques learned in therapy and through books. But now I feel like that is all thrown out the window and I am starting from square one. I am snappy, agitated and short fused right now and I hate it.

I bought a journal over two weeks ago and found myself making only two entries and the combined entries contain 1 page. I cant even direct this anger and agitation because it's rediculous. There is no basis for any of it.