I can't help but feel like I may be alone forever.... How will I ever be in a meaningful relationship, when the ups and downs of dating trigger my symptoms and activate my trust issues.....I feel like I need to work on me more, before I get into a commited relationship. Its been five years since my divorce and I can't seem to let anyone get too close anymore. My life has been such a revolving door that I just don't know if I'm strong enough to handle falling in love or actually the risk of a broken heart.....I know that love is a risk, but does having major depressive disorder have to mean its a risk I can't take....dating triggers everything from my childhood abuse and a whole host of other challenges......I'm tired of being lonely but I guess its safer than the alternative....hopefully one day I will get to a point in therapy where this will all be a memory of my past.....I won't hold my breath.....Can anyone relate?