Hi. I have recently found this site, but have not intro myself tho I have posted a few responses. I was diagnosed with major depression ( not a surprise) with psychotic tendencies (huh? Did not see that coming) in 2005. Things became worse and had a few nervous breakdowns. Felt better in 2009 and thought I had turned the corner. Wrong. Late 2010, early 2011 I fell back again. Began feeling better by the end of 2011 and stopped therapy and meds. Probably not a good idea. Back came the darkness about 6 months ago and I have been trying to deal with it since.

I am back on meds and am also undergoing intensive psychoanalysis. Things could not be much worse. Therapy is bringing up a lot of garbage I had tried to forget. The self loathing and sense of failing everyone have become so acute that I feel more lost than ever and unsure whether I can continue.

So now I have joined this community. I look forward to reading your posts, knowing that as you have walked in my shoes you understand a little what I am feeling.

Best of luck to all

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