I know babe and I feel for you but u really need to try and expand ur life and accept he is gone and build on it. U will have support around u in friends and family I presume? U also have friends here willing to listen too xxx u will feel weak, u thought he was the one and ur down and out but personally I think the best way is to concentrate on you and get confidence to do what u dream of doing or at least have a dream board or bucket lost and work through it. Time will heal your heart xxxx