I have been having a lot of various disturbing Intrusive thoughts since I was 8 years old. I am now 21 and from age 19 til about 6 to 8 months ago I had the right dosage of Meds to where I was in control of my intrusive thoughts I was able to let them go if they hit and live a almost completely worry/ OCD free life it felt like... after I switched Psychiatrists that changed 6-8 months ago he started switching my meds after my first consulation and increased other meds I was on and my intrusive thoughts increased ... and it got worse and worse each month. I am now on all new meds , none original meds that I was on when I started seeing him. My intrusive thoughts are harder to deal with I go into extreme anxiety attacks and almost hard to cope ... I work part time at a restaurant and I sometimes feel like Im frozen or in shock and have to go to bathroom to be away from people.. I feel like its getting worse and worse and I see a therapist, but she and I haven't been able to keep a session time for past 2 months more her than me... because of the snow and her family stuff so I haven't been able to discuss it with her.

I have my parents who I live with and they help as much as they can and I try to journal but its getting so hard. I have had a lot of suicidal thoughts lately but I haven't done anything to hurt myself... and I don't plan to.
I just need to figure out a way to get back on track.

my mom gave me a list of new Psychiatrists I can call to try and there is one I am gonna call tomorrow... maybe switching med doctors will help...

any helpful advice or feedback?
anyone else struggle with intrusive thoughts?
How do you cope?