I have been "cut free" for about 6 months now. It has been a daily struggle but I have been doing really good. But the last few days, I have had the urge to cut and its been hard not to. So much in my life has been spiraling out of control and I feel like I am losing my mind. I have tried everything I can to keep myself from cutting but I am losing the battle. Tonight, I actually broke open my shaving razor and held the blade in my hand for 10 minutes. I really dont want to go back to cutting. Last time I cut myself, I needed stitches cause I cut way too deep. I am afraid to cut again because I am afraid that I will really hurt myself.

But I am scared. The urge to cut is so strong right now. I could really use some advice or someone to talk to.