Just want to clarify, what do you mean when you were young, it seemed normal? You mean when you took meds, you realized how different the feeling is from what you were before?

Currently, I can still do my daily routine and I have motivation to do things. But there's like this shadow of anxiety following me and just won't leave. It's been like that for 4 months. This has become my new 'normal' and I'm wondering how my previous normal felt like.