None that have worked today. I can't even sleep, I've been up since six am and I have to be back at work at four am. Which includes seven hours of driving after which I'll get home and have to deal with all the requisite drama that entails. I'm pretty sure it's somehow mu fault that I've been mostly out of contact with my bf for days on end. Even though he's the one who took Xanax and lost hos phone. Somehow or another everything is my fault. I'm so tired but my mind is on fast forward. I don't know what to do or how to deal. I only have one friend and I don't want to burden her, not right now. She's gotten some pretty terrible news recently and needs to process that. I can't talk to my bf, he takes me feeling this way as a personal attack on him or just some show for sympathy and attention. Which distracts from the attention he should be getting because I'm a horrible person who has to leave him at home with nothing to do while I go away for two to three weeks at a time to work. I hide it all from my family, they haven't a clue I'm going through this. All they're allowed to see is the me who has my **** together. I can bear the judgments.