No worries! I'm sorry D: that sounds really rough. Also, it's most definitely not your fault that you haven't been in contact for a while. It's his responsibility to talk to you too. I definitely understand feeling when your mind is on fastforward though. Is there anything you know to do to make it slow down? Maybe listen to some of your favorite songs and sing along? Or perhaps play a puzzle game on your phone? Maybe take a little time to daydream? That one always helps relax me.

And don't feel bad about having to leave for work. It's work and he knows that. And you work really hard too so please be a bit gentler with yourself.