I wish you didn't have to go through that....that does sound very exhausting....I can relate to angry, sad,untrusting and suspicious.....I am so the opposite of overly energetic.....some days its a struggle to get through my daily tasks....its crazy to feel like you can't do something even though logically you know you can and have done it....some days I wish I could sleep my life away and not have to cope with anything.....thank god for my kids, because without them I'm not even sure I would ever leave the house.....I wish I could shut off feelings of lonliness while I focus on trying to make a better life for my kids and I.....being single is probably for the best considering the circumstances