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Originally Posted by changethecycle
I can't help but feel like I may be alone forever.... How will I ever be in a meaningful relationship, when the ups and downs of dating trigger my symptoms and activate my trust issues.....I feel like I need to work on me more, before I get into a commited relationship. Its been five years since my divorce and I can't seem to let anyone get too close anymore. My life has been such a revolving door that I just don't know if I'm strong enough to handle falling in love or actually the risk of a broken heart.....I know that love is a risk, but does having major depressive disorder have to mean its a risk I can't take....dating triggers everything from my childhood abuse and a whole host of other challenges......I'm tired of being lonely but I guess its safer than the alternative....hopefully one day I will get to a point in therapy where this will all be a memory of my past.....I won't hold my breath.....Can anyone relate?
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Hello changethecycle-
Oh, boy can I relate. I too went through a divorce and the self-worth that I have always struggled with hit a new low. I have been isolated-for a few reasons-and it's been years since I've been in a relationship. I also battle with depression and PTSD and I am so wary of triggers sending me into a deeper despair. And, I can also relate to the childhood abuse. You could have been writing about me. I wonder if I will ever be able to be in a relationship-if I will ever be able to re-join the world again. I am constantly working on my issues and problems, to try to work through all of the trauma and everything else that has happened but it is so hard doing it alone. I am sorry that you have these same struggles and I wish you all the best.