Hello changethecycle-

Oh, boy can I relate. I too went through a divorce and the self-worth that I have always struggled with hit a new low. I have been isolated-for a few reasons-and it's been years since I've been in a relationship. I also battle with depression and PTSD and I am so wary of triggers sending me into a deeper despair. And, I can also relate to the childhood abuse. You could have been writing about me. I wonder if I will ever be able to be in a relationship-if I will ever be able to re-join the world again. I am constantly working on my issues and problems, to try to work through all of the trauma and everything else that has happened but it is so hard doing it alone. I am sorry that you have these same struggles and I wish you all the best.