Thanks for your comments. Actually i'm the one that wishes to stay friends because I dont want to lose him. He would like to stay friends as well, but I feel like we have to stay friends. I If i cannot have him as a boyfriend, I have to have him as a friend. How will I deal if he's not in my life? I'm so lost. I cant let go, and I dont think I ever will. I dont want to let go. I dont want to forget. I just want my life back to the way it was before. but now its done and over and there is nothing I can do to go back or change it. Deep down inside, i have this real feeling that just keeps telling me that this is real, and that we are right for each other, even though its over as of right now. I dont know if this is just me not wanting to let go or if its real. It really feels like something I shouldnt ignore. I dunno.