Hello Crimson Blues....I can't tell you what a relief it is to know that your not alone in your struggles and your right it is mostly a fear of the downward spiral that is my symptoms that I fear the most.....I have become quick at cutting people off at the slightest negative....on one hand its good, but for the most part it keeps me alone....I try to take things slow, but I find the men I date and actually like just get bored after awhile....I try to tell myself its for the best and obviously they would not have been good for me anyway but that certainly doesn't cure the lonliness....I'm clinging to hope but I think it may be a long time before I can handle the ups and downs that come with a relationship.....Thank you for sharing your story....there is strength in knowing your not alone

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