I try not to let it bother me and just remember that there are alot of people with similar problems so me being like this is somewhat normal. Im sure many people know someone or have a family member who has a mental illness of some kind. I feel the same way as you. Like people know. I don't act "normal." But just act like yourself. Have you ever used xanax or something to calm you down so your thoughts are racing and being paranoid all the time? Xanax helps me. I especially feel akward when I smoke pot so I dont do it anymore. I cant smoke for other reasons too like my job. Things will get better. Are you in counseling? Try talking to someone about how you feel.