Back story…
After getting out of a mental health care facility.
I found myself homeless, jobless and alone.
Had to do some things I am not too proud of to get by.
Most of the money I got from selling my plasma went for buying me meds.
I am so afraid of another mixed episode. Terrified.
After being out of work for almost a year I finally landed a job. It is a job that no one else wanted and had gone unfilled for 4 months.
Personally I like it. there is a lot of down time and the pay allowes me to live on my own without food stamps and even has pretty good insurance.
BUT
Tomorrow I have to take a national based test for certification and for the past two weeks
I have been an almost perpetual state of panic attack. Feels like and elephant is sitting on my chest and I cant breathe.
If I pass the test I will have this job as long as I want it.
If I fail then I am out of a job in May.
Thank you for reading.
Chris