my friends...please don't feel you are a f...k up....its this train of thought that is so bad for us..... I am trying daily to like myself...I am always so frustrated when I start down that track of being bad, useless ,horrible....etc... I have to stop and back up off that track.... its something I work on and my bf is helping me with...as a matter of fact...we have a secret ear tug we do when I start down the bad track...nobody else knows or notices...but we smile about it....we talk about it later while we are snuggling.... he helps me want to be a better and whole person every day... I just love him for it... please know all this will pass as you will feel better about yourself...and may even grow to like you!!!