Maybe it is the disorder maybe not. Either way I see you making the same mistake I am STILL making. Not wanting to hurt someone else and sacrifice our own happiness just to avoid it. If you don't love him let him down sooner than later. Been with mine for over twenty years wishing to get away every minute. Is it too late? I have kids now. When do you do the hard thing and care about yourself instead of being in a resentful lie of a relationship. Do you think you are doing him a favor by staying with him? Do you think you will Grow to love him? I can assure you all you are going to do is grow to hate him and yourself. This is not my opinion ... It is my experience... My regret!!!

~Sent from Dark Side of the Moon~