Yes, unfortunately it is me.. Last time I texted him I apologized for trying to find answers and forcing into him friendship that he doesn't want, I said I won't bother him again but will always be here if he needs me.. I don't know if it will make up for my behavior but I hope it did. I don't know why do I do this because it really isn't me, I am this way only with him because he meant the world for me, all I had was him and every day we spent together, if you only seen us as a couple, if you knew us, I think you wouldn't be so harsh on me.