Feeling more miserable than usual today. I tried to make plans with a friend of mine who has a birthday coming up (despite her doing absolutely nothing for me on my birthday... I figured it would make me feel better to be the bigger person), texted her about four hours ago and still no response. This is why I almost never ask anyone to hang out with me... I am so intensely afraid of being rejected that I just can't bear to even take that risk. So I usually just wait for them to ask me instead... The one time I do take a chance and ask someone, I get ignored. *sigh* I know I'm overreacting and she will probably reply eventually but she even knows that I am depressed and very sensitive to being (or just feeling like I'm being) ignored, and she still neglects her phone... I'm so frustrated and now I wish I never would have asked.