Newtus: I used to wear make-up in high school also. I don't like it any more either. It's just time consuming to put it on and for what? I don't think it makes me look better or anything. I think it would be more helpful if your pdoc can help you understand symptoms of self-care and how to cope or ways to make you feel better so you can better care for yourself. I know when I was going through trauma I didn't take showers for weeks a time. i didn't even feel like I needed it. Then at one point when I felt better I got a nice soap and took a shower one day and I felt like I was washing the pain off of me. I really wasn't, but it made me feel human again. But no one could make me, I had to get to that point on my own.

junkDNA: I know it's hard but try not to focus on things you can't control. I'm sorry you feel so bad today.

Twigg: I don't know much about meds but maybe you can talk to the pdoc and find out if there is a chance to come off the meds or taper them down?