For those who don't know, it is about me and my ex, me texting him trying to find answers and closure even tho it has been 5 months since he broke up with me, he has blocked me many times for facebook (the only website where I would contact him). As I mentioned he did answered to me few times and tried to be my friend but it didn't work and he would start ignoring me all over again, I agree to admit that my behavior is a little obsessive and I don't want to be that kind of a person. I am only 21 and many people around me keep telling me that my whole life is ahead of me, but I don't see a bright future. He broke my heart and it is very hard to get up and walk again, I hate myself for making him have to hide from and block me, I didn't mean to hurt him or be annoying but this relationship meant everything to me and I couldn't let go just like that.
Is there anything I can do to make up for my behavior? What do I do now? He must hate me and no matter how beautiful our relationship used to be, he will never respect me, although I don't have many reasons to respect him either after what he has done. I don't know..