I have tons of notable mentions but one that sticks out for me is the agent smith vision. in my younger years I had many dreams that came to pass exactly as I dreamt them. when it happens it is a unique feeling in all the world. as events unfold, something seems to happen to my perception of time, a slow motion sort of thing with a twist of "you're not actually here participating in it". very high pitched tingling sensations wave over me and every hair on my body is suddenly in business for itself.
a year into my psychosis, I was going through a delusional state in which my soul secretly splintered itself into 7 pieces and only one remained. 6 voices proceeded to coax the last one out and if they succeeded I would die....of course. I went out front of my building to get fresh air (smoke) and time seemed to slow down and that particular feeling came about to let me know this was a dream happening. the problem is, I could not relate it to any dream I had. this never happens.....there is a literal "feeling" connection that brings back the dream and a balance occurs. this connection never came. I didn't dream this. I felt for the first time in my life that I had actually BEEN HERE. poor agent smith....." wait I've seen this before, I'm standing here and I'm supposed to say something...." moments later I was in psych.
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